Whatta day

i rushed home hoping to catch the chinese drama in channel 8
was dreaming can relax my mind while watching the drama
Hoping to have an early sleep as the sleepy-attack just didnt stop bugging me the whole day

But, i wasnt aware that actually i forgot to bring my house keys (again) and i hope it would be the last time :(

Called my guardian but she didnt picked up the phone
was about to call my housemate koko hosea but he is in batam
Tried calling my guardian again and after the 3rd attempt, she picked up the call finally but she and her husband is having dinner at regency hotel and will be back very late

Lucky my ipod's battery is still full
I can access to internet via phone and
have the e-bible stored in my mobile
and the most important thing, i didnt forget my wallet!

The wind downstair of my house makes me sleepier and i just wanna throw myself to the bed now
Huhuhuuuuhuuuuuuuuuuuu

in the end, i waited from 9 to 11 pm :(

One of 2010's resolutions is eating more gingko or other foods or supplements or vitamins which can help to lower brain maturity and reduce forgetfullness and recklessness !!!!

my heart sings a hymne of love to YOU . . .

n e w m o o n : the twilight saga

disappointment is the only word to mark New Moon
its far below my expectation compared with the book
however, one thing and only thing that cheer me up by watching this movie is the drop-dead HOT Taylor Lautner
i had finished reading the 4 twiligh saga and it always makes me fall in love with Edward Cullen [not RobPAt, its the vampire !!!!] and Jacob Black always turns me off because he is so childish and too impulsive
however, this movie makes me falls in love with Taylor Lautner
and He is so beautifully georgeous and H O T [read: his six-pack!!!] hahahaha

my number one's most favourite character is still Edward Cullen's calmness and patiance and at the same time i adore Taylor Lautner :)

my heart sings a hymne of love to YOU . . .

2009 is my Breakthrough and ComfortZoneYear

yay! This december is the ending of 2009!
only one sentence which everyone in the world has been commented also
"time flies so fast"
2009 has been my comfort-zone year in everything i do

KA4J and CHEERFUL Class
it had never been acrossed my mind that one day i will be assigned to a class in KA4J
at first i was already satisfied when i was allocated at Victory's Class, under Rorra and i was so deeply in love with those little toddler
when i had found my comfort zone here, i was moved to the totally new class, Wisdom under ci Vena
this class is very crowded and i always gave headache everytime i talked to the kids, and lucky i was not the teacher in charge :D and yeps! i had found my comfort zone again here
after sometimes, i finally moved and fixed to Cheerful class
i had no confidence at first as i had never get in touch with Kids before and ive been always played with Junior Kids
but its indeed true when you surrended everything to Him, He will make it perfect and my love to my Cheerful kids grows day by day
and i had never dreamt that i will be assigned to be the Worship leader as well!
whoa with an average voice i have? its just because of His grace :)

IG MARKETS
okeh, it goes without saying IG is like my 3rd home after my own family and FAmilyalways
this month means ive been working here for 2 years and i am truly happy and pleased working here
well, i guess i have to move from my comfort zone and start from next year, gonna look for new job
what i have been praying for my next job is the same with IG which are a MNC, a good boss like my current boss, family-enviromental-colleagues, easily accessible location [it would be perfect if this is at Raffles Place :D] and a new range of pay.

RORIE Family
lets talk about my family
this year God opened way for my dad as he got a freelance job in Singapore with $$$ pay
i really see the changes in my family and thank God for it
my mom has been a blessing for my family and other people as well
i just realized that me and my brothers have been actively serving God in oun own ministry!
i am serving in the Sunday School, my 2nd brothers Jeff is in charge in the multimedia in my batam's church and lastly, my youngest brother is assigned at the music [keyboard/bass and guitar/ in the main service and youth service
its just true that our parents prayer has a great power and will bless its kids abundantly !

PERSONAL life
ive changed and not only me notice it but the people around me even commented about it to me
of course compared with last year, i changed lots and the greatest change i experience is my spiritual life :)

praying and devotion is my daily bread while fasting is a-must-to-do-monthly activity hahahas
i dont know since when but i am not open as i used to it last time
well, i still talk lots and lots of things to my friends around me but i just cant be opened when it talks about my feeling or personal issues
last time, i've never understood those people who always kept everything themselves but now i totally understand and i do :)
even when i am very down, the person i turn to is God by praying
only Him ever seen me in my most-worst condition/ my worst crying or begging this year
there is no human being ever seen it and, weirdly, 'am proud of it :)
Thank God for giving my the strength and i guess i had grown up and more mature! yay!

healthy food and life is my lifestyle
now am very concerned with food that i eat and always ensure no exceed oil or lesser deep fried food or less sugar
sport such as jogging/body combat/muay thai and TBT had caught my eyes as well
drinking hot green tea everyday to get rid any exceed oil
its no longer to-lose-weight purpose, its about a healthy lifestyle
one bad habit which its been difficult for me to kick off is consuming double pearl green tea ice blended!
arrrhhh why green tea is so delicious and i just cant stop consuming it every satruday with my gado gado! hahahas

now lets talk about relationship hahahahas
its the least-interesting topic for me this year
my 2 younger brothers have their own partner now and everybody else will like "so nana, ur brothers have gf now, how about u?"
eerrrrmmmmmmmmmm, my reply will always "dont worry, u'll receive my invitation before 2012" :D and it works because it diverts their attention to the 2012 movie [and this is my initial purpose!]
so my magicwork plays effectively! hahahas
after seeing the fear in my mom's eyes when i jokingly said "is it okay if nana dont get married so nana can take care of u and dad till u are old", i finally realized something
okeh i have been enjoying being myself and alone and i have been thinking i am living for myself not for anybody else
BUT i still have my parents and family around me whom i shud consider their feeling thus i shall not be selfish !
oh, i guess i am ready to open my heart again next year hahahas
well, i mean if there is someone approaches me next year, i will not immediately say no with no further consideration like i have been doing this year
at least, i might want pray for it and give both of us chance to see if we are meant one another or not
some people commented that i set too high standards or criterias which i strongly disagree
what ive been praying for my soulmate only 3 criterias such as love and serve God seriously [with purpose to pray/run and serve together to reach God's purpose in our life], dote on me with wholeheartedly and dearly [will never ever make me cry or break my heart] and must be taller than me, at least 10 cm [so i still can wear heels] :D
it aint impossible criterias am i right?
its just that i havent met someone who met these criteria till today

'am gonna review my wishlist of 2009 and see if i have achieved all of them !
yay! gonna make a new 2010 resolution soonnnn

yay! 2010 is a greater and creative year for me and my family :)

my heart sings a hymne of love to YOU . . .

our friendship never ends

oh well, wanted to edit this photograph with my photoshop but my old lappie aint strong enuff to run it due to its memory shortfall

its been 6 years old and has to be RIP-ed soon

been saving to buy a new lappie and been eyeing MAC :D

wish to have a big fat X'mas bonus by my lophely IG to get one for me as xmas gift hahahas

Rosmelly [Rose smelly]
Yanti Kusmiyati [Yanti Kumis Kucing]

Anne Christina Rorie [Ak-neng]

yesh, OUR FRIENDSHIP NEVER ENDS has been our motto ever since.

we've been bestfriend since 2001 and still counting

we often talked and guessed who will get married first among 3 of us and now we got the answer

the winner is ROSE :)

the silver winner is Yanti which will be held by May 2010

. . . and i am the last which is fair as im the youngest although im the biggest and tallest
i heart both of them and im lucky to be friend with them till forever (:

my heart sings a hymne of love to YOU . . .

puuuffuuufeeeee

bitterness caused by your own best-friend's remarks is just too awful

Ive learned and am still learning this three wise key

see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil
it is the key for me to stay cheerful temporarily, i guess

whatever this person gonna comment or say to me, will just treat it as a passing wind which will not left any remark or impression in my heart
wont let it bring me down or make me feel like a loser

i dont understand why does this person always poke her nose into my business ?

can't you just buzz off?

my heart sings a hymne of love to YOU . . .

a proverbs woman

had witnessed my mom who is faithfully praying to God every single day of her life
had seen some of pastors' wife whose praying is their daily bread
had heard how the wife of Uganda's president's prayer lifestyle had change its nations tremendously

and this evening, i happened to get this verse Proverbs 31: 10-31 on the illustration of a virtuous woman
ladies, grab your bible and read it!
its too way beautiful :)

i feel fortunate growing up in my family lifestyle
well, there is no perfect family but the greatest thing i can learn from my family is praying power from my mom
she is been my family prayer tower and am learning much from her to be her accompanian
its better 2 person than 1 :)

a proverbs woman is not only being a great wife who will wake up early in the morning to prepare breakfast for her husband.
is not only to take care all the everyday household never fail,
is not only wash and iron nicely all the clothing for the family,
is not only to serve the husband,
is not only to educate and accompany the kids,

an ideal proverbs woman is someone who also can manage her time wisely to spend moment with God and to seek His face :)

aint a PROVERBS WOMAN is such a warrior and cool :D

my heart sings a hymne of love to YOU . . .

a forever promise

she was in the midst of wrapping bday and xmas gifts for her kids
all of sudden, she remembered that she had plenty of arts and crafts in the small cupboard in her room which she planned to decor the xmas card
she happily opened it, but her eyes fixed to a small box fulls of photos, letters, cards, diaries, books and gifts of her past
after a year, she finally opened it

in a completed silent, she took the scissor in the bag which was used by her kids this morning and cut all the stuff
without her meaning it, her tears just rolled on her cheek and the pain hit her heart, again
the similiar pain . . .
after sometimes, she couldnt take it and change to her jogging outfit

inhaling the fresh air, seeing the green trees, cars passing by, people are running here and there . . .
l i f e g o e s o n a n d t i m e i s p r e c i o u s
there is no same moment takes place twice in our life

while running, her eyes were so hot and teary and she gave up
she didnt try to stop it, instead she forced herself to let it out till the very last drop of the tears
she didnt want to have even the tiniest tears of her past or slightest shadow of it bugs her again in the future

she was aware that it was the silly-est moment ever
some jogger and passer by just looked at her with a question mark face
for 20 minutes, she was running and shedding her tears, without s t o p
at the same time, her heart kept saying "bless those people Lord. bless them one by one. if this is Your will, let me bear this pain till i finally totally overcome it one day"

while mentioning their name one by one, deep inside of her heart says "well done anne! you are strong than you'd ever imagined. you'd changed. dont you see you are different from last year? last year with the same pain, when you felt it you actually challenged God and asked Him to take away this pain rightaway and grumbled in front of Him, but now you actually grafetul to feel the same pain because the more this pain you feel, the more you need God! 'am proud of you"

with a cheerful heart she promised to herself and God "8 november 2009 is the last day i shed my tears for my past. i've had it enough and enough is enough. tears no more for my past"

this promise will be forever and a big thanks to Jesus for being there when she needed someone the most :)
Thanks for giving her the courage to do the action which she couldnt bring herself to do last year
all the stuff has been moved to the dustbin and no single thing left, even the smallest one and including those photos that she thought she looked pretty on it :D

my heart sings a hymne of love to YOU . . .

at least, am not alone :D

i just realized and understand 1 common most hated question by all single/attached-but-not-yet-married, 20 years above ladies is "WHEN WILL YOU GET MARRIED?"
a-haaaa this is why i straightaway agreed when sisilia asked me if i would like to work during CNY and i reallie Thank GOD!
this is the perfect excuse not to meet all the kepo aunties/uncles/mom's friends and can avoid from being asked this unqualified question alias pertanyaan ga muthu gehto loo :D

during the body combat and bootcamp session, i was thinking and thinking if i am ready to start a new rlship
i couldnt decide at all and it seems pointless
one side of mine, i feel im already in my comfort zone now do every single thing i have to do on my own, i have my own space, i can do my own stuff and thoughts and etc and i am enjoying it so much
thinking to share all i have been doing alone with somebody else is such a nuisance
seeing guys or ladies who are so despo finding their soulmate turn me off the most!
wondering i have to learn about someone new's characters/weakness/personalities is like wasting time and i am just too lazy to reach that point
and i just realized that i dont trust and put hope on people much as much as i used to even to those who are very close to me

but on the other side, i still have the dream to wear the white-elegant and gorgeous wedding gown together with the perfect tiara and heels!
aaawwwww while walking in the aisle and holding the most beautiful bouquet of flowers ever, the wedding songs is being played at the background
so sweet aint it?
but but but i wouldnt be able to reach this level if i couldnt decide with my other side, isnt it?

whatever!
fortunate enuff, i am not alone (:

my heart sings a hymne of love to YOU . . .

God answers prayers (:

. . . and he reallie does!

my friend, Verina had accepted Jesus as her personal saviour! cihuyyy :)
only me and God knows how long i have been praying for her
i got to know her only last year and i know that she had been attending the catholic school since kindergarden and since beginning of the year i started to pray for her
but there was a moment when we had a christianity-discussion during our cafe time, she gave me lots of questions, assumption and judgement on how bad christian people are and how extreme bethany people are
although i had explained to her, she was still stubborn and i almost gave up and stopped praying for her for few days
suddenly God just reminded me about her during one of my devotion times and i started to pray for her again and till yesterday she shared with me how 3 weeks ago she accepted Jesus
i was so pleased and happie yippie, my heart keeps thanksgiving to God
He had answered one of my prayers :)

i also remember that since last year i always pray for these 3 guyfriends of mine
they have been very kind to me during my darkest moment in life and im pretty grateful to them
i am not really sure if they are very very close or not but i know they are friend since our sec school
i couldnt return their kindness in person, so i can only pray for them everyday
i always mention those 3 person' named in order manner and it as if being a rymne in my prayer hahahahas its like a tape being replay :D
and 2 months ago i heard from one of them that these 3 people are sharing together to run a restaurant and it was a surprise for me
well, i am not pointing out that their current plan to run a resto is because of my prayer. its a big no!
maybe Gos purposely makes it happen this way so that i always remember to pray for them :)
wow! Prayer has a secret power indeed :)
they are still in my prayer of course till today and i hope 2 of them can follow verina's footsteps, one day ^:^

today i had a serious talk with my kid, Jason
he is only 11 years old but he aint just an ordinary boy
his parents are working and although he has a maid, sometimes he has to cook himself and blimey, he can cook rice, egg and chicken [aint he great!]
he always put other people's need above his, example he gave me; when he was studying while his little brother was playing games. suddenly, his little bro asked for his help to finish the game so he can win, he will settle it for his little brother and after that he'll continue his study [aint he cute and innocent !!]
when i teased him "ahhh its because u also want to play the game !!" he strongly againsts it and gave other examples on how he has to leave his things after his mom called him for help

. . . and the one that melted my heart the most is when he told me like this "cici, i am so stress and sad about rapture. i cant really sleep well. i know i will go to heaven because i already believe in Jesus but there are so many people out there do not believe in Jesus yet. i already told my school friends about Jesus is the only way to go to Heaven but they dont want to believe me, they said bible is only a fairy tale. what else i can do now?"

he is a small boy with a very big heart ever!
i reallie believe that it aint just a coincidence if my praying progress for verina and jason's current burden are just pretty similiar and connected
and when my prayer was answered, i met someone who was facing the same issue like mine!
it had been arrenged by Him, and His time is just too way beautiful and perfect (:

it really teaches me one thing :)
there are some things in our life just beyond our control and we realize that the only one who can change it is only God. PRAYING and FAITH are the only keys to make it possible (:

i can share and explain to him what shud he does because i had already passed thru what he is facing now
i can only taught him of what i had learnt
he has to pray for his friend every single day, never fail and he promised me he'll pray for his friend everyday from today onwards
and before he went home, we prayed together (:

whatever turmoil or burden you are facing now, dont let your faith go
keep hold on to Him till you finish it and win the war because after you are declared as a winner, you will be a blessing for others who face the similiar problem (:

always keep it in your mind till it is permanently crafted in your heart that
"GOD WILL NEVER EVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU"

my heart sings a hymne of love to YOU . . .

c h e e r s !!

there is rainbow after the rain
its the same like us, whereby there is a big smile after tears, happiness after the pain,

the heavier the rain is, the clearer and more beautiful the rainbow will be
the more tears you waste and the more pain you bear, the more extraordinary surprises and blessings are awaiting for you

s t a y s t i l l . . .
keep walking on His track
dont go beyond His way
keep waiting patiently

something that had never crossed in your mind,
seomthing that you had never expected before,
something that you had never dreamt of previously,

. . . is on its way and just in the perfect time, it will knock your door and enters your heart and life
it surely makes you think "it is worth it, God. my tears? my pain? they seem to be blurry and vague"

you could only feel a wonderful thankfulness fills your heart abundantly till you couldnt contain it
and only tears of happiness can express it

so, dont give up (:

my heart sings a hymne of love to YOU . . .