Wednesday, July 8, 2009
being single is the most enjoyable moment :)
i was both happy and annoyed when my little brother was here
annoyed coz he was annoying sometimes hahahas!
happie coz i can talk lots of things with him and listen to his uneq uneq about his school, ministry, friend till relatinship !
okeh! this time i want to talk about a relationship as it caught my attention recently
in these few days, all of sudden so many not-so-sweet-stories about a relationship in spite of the upcoming-wedding-events :)
and all these stories really make me feel so grateful and fortunate for being a single :)
well, i understand that some people will say "what you heard was all the bad things. when you have found the right one, you wont feel the same way"
yep! i agree with it, i guess when ive found my soulmate, i wont think this way but im grateful to God for giving my chance to enjoy my single time to the fullest like i have never had before
some of my friend laughed at me when i told them about it
they all mocked at me and said "this is not what i heard when you first broke up"
ah-ha! what a shame you remember that!
i admit that time i urgently wanted to find a "replacement" just to prove to my ex that i am still attrative or whatsoever-pride-sin, further more after knowing he's got someone replaced me so fast!
God's promise that all his children wont be ashamed was realized in my life =)
he sent few guys approached me and we were pretty close
they treated me in their own way that made me feel so special which ive never got from my ex
from them also, i learnt new things or principles about guys which ive never known before
i was wondering, i was sooooooo desperate to find a new BF but after those guys confessed their feeling, i just couldnt accept their love
at first i didnt understand but after sometimes i do and its all because of God :)
well, i was desperate to find the new BF but didnt believe in true love anymore which meant i was in a pointless situation where i didnt even know whan i actually wanted and needed
His promise is to prove me that He takes control in everything i am and He knows what i actually want and what i need =)
everytime i met my bestfriends, they will ask if i already find a BF and my answer is always the same "hahahah! at the moment, im enjoying my single so muchhh and lurve it"
and one of my bestfriend told me politely as she doesnt want to hurt my feeling "anne, untuk hidup sendiri selamanya itu adalah suatu panggilan hidup, kamu ngak kepikir utk hidup single selamanya kan?"
i was stunned and laughed so loud and felt wanna hug her tightly! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
i lophe you, monnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn that you concern about me so much, am touched :)
of course, i do still believe in marriage and true love but its just not in my mind at the moment :)
presently, i might not need someone yet in my life but by the time i need someone God will send that person to my life :)
Your time is never too early and never late, Your time is Perfect ^:^
when people ask me if i feel lonely sometimes
eerrrmmm. . . im not sure ive ever felt so lonely anymore due to my working life on weekdays and busy weekend with prayer and the kids, not mentioned have to practise for WL or Singer and movie/dinner with other friends
On Friday i prefer to stay at home to relax and take rest before my busy saturday and sunday
there were couple of times when i was very very very down and i could only cry and cry and i was all alone
prayer was the only key to cheer up :)
i realize that i am still a crybaby, esp when i am praying hahaha =D
when i felt tired and like aimless, God would always send someone or bible verse to give me the answer
for instance last month when i was intimidated with my past, i felt like a loser but God kept telling me "jangan pernah melepaskan Janji Tuhan dalam hidup kamu" and i got this message till 4 times from different people and it really strengthen me ^:^
He loves me so muchhhhhh and i adore Him tooo bits :)
hey folks! you can be happy also when you are single!
being taken or in a relationship doesnt mean you will be happie always
either you are single or taken, there will be times in your ups and down
well, it depends on how do you define "happiness" in your dictionary
some people are happy when they have lotsa monies, when they can get whatever they want, to be famous, reach their dreams, when they are together with the people they love and loved etc
I still can be happy knowing that i have a loving God who never forsake me, intimate relationship with Holy spirit, my parents who are very supportive to me, entertaining brothers who love me and sometimes overprotective to me, all my friends around me, my enjoyable and relax job at IG markets and all the colleagues, my blessed ministry with the KidsArmy4Jesus, the lophely FAmilyAlways and my weekend-meeting with my goodfriends :)
'am contented with everything, GOD ^:^
one thing that i could tell other to glorify His name is i can move on from a-pretty-long-and-not-so-pleasant-relationship and am enjoying my life to the fullest and happily and still believe in true love is because of GOD, not because of my own strength nor because i had found someone else as a replacement. Ive told God that i dont want to be healed only after i have met the replacement because i want to meet my soulmate after i am totally healed :)
sooooooooooo, bachelors and bachelorettes out there enjoy your single time to the fullest before you are being tied up with someone forever =)
Monday, July 6, 2009
Ci Vena and Ko Erwin's ROM
o5 july 2oo9 - Kovan Melody
Thursday, July 2, 2009
most beautiful dream
She dreams that She run towards Him with her eyes set on His eyes, finally she touches Him, He hug her and whispers to her "You've made me smile, anne"
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Morning Prayer every Saturday at 10 am, Bethany Church Singapore
i met this bestfriend of mine 2 weeks ago and we have a heart to heart meeting
ciiieeehhh :P
when she learnt my Saturday activity is always morning prayer - lunch - SS prayer/worker prayer - movie/dinner with endru & verina & albert/victor/enrico then continued with Sunday always church - SS and lunch, she was surprised and shocked
till she asked me "why do you isolate yourself that way? why dont u enlarge your social circle? dont u feel bored doing the same activity everyweek? you have to step out from this comfort zone! next time when i am meeting with my friend in group, you must join me!"
i am sooo touched knowing she is sooo concern and cares for me but i am very comfortable with what i am now
lophe you, lis :)
ive been attending the saturday morning prayer since beginning of the year
at first, i went to the prayer because of my Promise to HIM
but with the time goes by, going to the morning prayer is one of the i-have-to-do-activities on saturday
everytime i go back to batam, i'll always feel so empty on saturday
last year, i used to wonder how on earth people are willing to sacrifice their sleeping time for the 2 hours-prayer
i used to think that i'd rather spend my saturday morning at my comfy bed and sleep like a log till noon
but now, i think that was a ridiculous thought that ever crossed in my mind
what could i say?
It changes me lots yesh, it changes my heart and mind
i loved sleeping and still do love sleeping but it just doesnt apply for it
there were couple of times i had a very late friday night outing/dinner and i felt so tired, but no matter how sleepy and tired i was, i would always feel excited to wake up on saturday morning knowing i can seek His face on saturday
God gives me the heart and motivation which is from Him, not from myself or from other people
God really gives me a heart to come to this prayer no longer because of my promise but because of my heart and love to Him
it teaches me not to pray only for myself or my family. it opens my eyes that there are lots of people outside there need to be prayed! they need our prayer!
and the obvious change is i love praying and i do :)
praying is my most favourite hobby so far
i pray everytime i feel like to talk to God, just to tell Him how do i feel, to givethanks to Him when i am happy or sad and to tell him the pain of my heart when i think i wasnt brave to bear the burden myself.
it teaches me to fast also :)
my parents used to "force" me to fast and i did their advise just because i wanted to make them happy
but now without them telling me i'd just fast whenever i feel wanna be closer to Him and i feel my heart is beating whenever i think of Him
i couldnt forget seeing my parents' face when they learnt that i was fasting by my own record when i went back ^:^
I'm reaching for your heart
You hold my life in your hand
Drawing me closer to you
I feel your power renew
Nothing compares to this place
Where I can see you face to face
I worship you in spirit and in truth
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Hope. Faith. Love
My Lord,
the intimidation i had this time round woke me up
from other's statement, question, the least person i wish to meet that sit together with me till my mom's vision
it was too strong till for the very first time, it defeated me and it broke me down like a coward
it made me feel so hopeless and i felt like a loser
yesh and it really broke my heart
what i had when i came to You few days ago?
only my kneel and tears, there were no words to tell You what exactly i felt
only You know it
with all the strength that i think i still have i came humbly before You
that was not the first time You saw me in that state
little did i know, i would still come to You with the same brokenhearted
little did i realize that day i would come to You with the same pain and tears
so many questions came to my mind that i'd love to ask You, if You want me to ask
Why did you let me feel that pain?
Why did you let me feel that agony?
Why did i was easily defeated by this nightmare after all these times?
the pain, agony and nightmare that made feel like a loser
i've always thought i have overcome it hundred percent
but thru this, You opened my eyes again
i am weak and nothing
yesh, i've always known and still know that i am nothing without You
i do not understand why You let this happened to me
i dont wish to demand an answer from You because i dont need to know the answer
what i want is only Your assurance of Your promises to be fullfilled in my life
what i demand from You is if the person that my mom had in her vision is the one from You, please let me see the same person in my dream/vision too
Give me an unquestioned faith like Noah
who lives not by sight, but by his faith
Give me an eternal faith like Job
who not only give thanks to You when he receives good things, but also still wanna give thanks to You in bad conditions
Give me a wholehearted faith like Moses
who surrendered all his weakness and let Your will be done in his journey with the Israelis
Give me a heart fulls of praise and worship like David
who praises You anytime and anywhere
Even when he was in a depression which leads him to act like a crazy man, he still praises Your mighty name
Give me a humble heart like Nehemia
When he is alone and felt being left behind, instead of grumbling yet he praises Your interfere and love to Israelis when they ran away from Egypt
Never ever even for a day You left them, in spite of their doubts and evil heart that hurt You
Give me a heart like Ruth
Who is faithful not only to her mother-in-law but also to You, who she had never seen or heart before she got married
Give me a wisdom like Esther
who is not afraid in anything as She is assured that You always stay with her
Give me a heart like Joseph
who forgives his brothers easily for the evil things and pain they gave to him
i cant see myself could be the people above
i am not brave enuff to be like Daniel who faithfully pray to You in day and night in spite of the death punishment
i am not strong enuff to be like David who still praise You even when he had to act like a crazyman
can i?
If this pain/agony/tears is Your will in my life, do not take it away from me
let me pass them thru till i finally overcome all
i'll keep running and running
i wont stop just in the midst of my champion
i wont stop till i finally touched the trophy
i will keep running till i reach the victory that i am seeing now
Please hug me when i fall
please hold my hand so i feel secure and assurance that i am not alone
please close my eyes and ears not to be disturbed by others
please give me Your heart to me so i can keep putting my Hope in You, always have Faith in You and have heart fulls of Love
a m e n . . .
Thursday, June 18, 2009
morning kids
when i was the WL last sunday, before i started the praise and worship i asked the kids if they are happy that today is sunday
all were screaming and say "YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS"
and i asked "why you are happy today is sunday?"
their answer gave me a very deep mark
some says "because on sunday i can come to sunday school"
some says "because on sunday i can praise and worship Jesus"
some says "because on sunday i can go to church"
none of them said because on sunday we can wake up later, go shopping, play with our friend or no need to study!
i can only stunned for a while and say "wow! thats a great answer!" and told God to give me a pure and innocent mind and heart like those kids . . .
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
His very spoken word to me . . .
"why dont you trust ME?"
this simple whisper from Him hits to the deepest of my heart
i couldnt take this word off my head
it made me wonder, why did He ask me this
in my everyday' prayer i always surrender to Him and say let Your will be done not mine
and again, He made me realizede
He knows me more than i know myself
He understand on every thought that came across on my mind which i dont even know
He recognized me till the deepest of my mind and heart and strength
and again, He reminded me not to let go of His promises to me
honestly, i still do not totally understand on His question above
but i am so thankful that He spoke to me personally
His reminder made me fall in lophe deeper and deeper
It shows how care He is to me
I will prove to You that i trust in You and i believe in You
but one thing i request form You
Give me strength and wisdom for every circumstances or conditions that 'am gonna face in the future
Monday, June 15, 2009
Narcism - Gown hunting ^:^
Monday, June 8, 2009
g00d th0ught =)
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. You are special and unique.
8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you take another look.
11. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
And always remember,
when life hands you Lemons, ask for Tequila and Salt and call me over!
Good friends are like stars.
You don't always see them , But you know they are always there.
Whenever God Closes One Door He Always Opens Another, Even Though Sometimes It's Hell in the Hallway"
I would rather have one rose and a kind word
from a friend while I'm here , than a whole truck load when I'm gone.
Happiness keeps You Sweet,
Trials keep You Strong,
Sorrows keep You Human,
Failures keeps You Humble,
Success keeps You Glowing,
But Only God keeps You Going
Worry looks around, sorry looks back, Faith looks up
Friday, June 5, 2009
bridesmaid
okeh, last night nong nong called me and she said her wedding was fixed on 1 august in jakarta
and i must be her bridesmaid
i am too happy for her till my tears rolled down on my cheek when i was on the phone with her
finally, she had found her happiness
after the setback she faced few years ago
once again, His time is beautiful =)
i pray very hard that my dad will allow me to go to jakarta to be her special accompanian
too excited till last night i immediately searched the ticket prices at airasia website :)
donna already applied leave from 31 july till 2 august so i guess i can only take leave SG to jakarta on friday night, 1 august
i guess i can only go there over the weekend from 31 july till 2 august :(
sounds very rush, doesnt it? but i've no choice
it means i will have to find my gown here as i wont be able to do the fitting there
but thank God nong nong doesnt mind !
and i am considering if i want to keep my hair long or maintain it short !?!?
most of my friend agreed that short hair fits me, but when i searched the bridesmaid most of them have long hair
so envious leee :P
oh gosh!
this year i'll be a bridesmaid for 2 times as rose also will get married by december
continued with yanti's wedding next march
hahahaha
i've been a bridesmaid when i was a kid for 2 times only
i heard a gurl cant be a bridesmaid more than 3 or 7 times, otherwise u wont get married?
okeh thats enuff then after yanti's wedding, i wont accept any bridesmaid anymore then
its fair enuff =D
provers 16:3
[I] Commit [my] work to the LORD, and then [my] plans will succeed.
amen ^:^
Sunday, May 31, 2009
The 10 days Holy Spirit Rain Down and KidsArmy4Jesus Pentacost' Event
JOANNE TRISTAN SHANNON
last time, i used to cry lots whenever the holy spirit is working within me on my personal purposes/needs
but i realized that since mid of this year, most of the time when i do my devotion, i feet more joy and peace which always make me laugh and laugh lots
it questioned myself till om Djohan spoke from his sermon that whenever you were touched by holy spirit, doesnt mean you'll always cry
yesh, you'll feel semething in your body, heart and mind but doesnt necessarily have to cry
and i was so relieved when i heard this confirmation =)
another occasion He suddenly reminded me about my Qs last year
when i broke up last year, i kept asking Him Why did He let this happen in my life? How did someone i thought loved me so much could betray me?
Out of the blue, He answer me just recently only and yesh! after 1 year, after i already forgotten, after i stopped asking Him then He answered me
He just told me personally "Because if I never let that happened in your life, you'll never let him go and you will never meet the one I have prepared for you and My name will not be glorified in your life"
He always answer our prayer =)
Tuhan ga pernah berhutang and He always answer our prayer in the time we least expects it!
However, when i was attending the Sunday School Prayer Meeting and the SS Pentacost event today, i cried and cried lots but the peace was still in my heart
the innocent face of my kids kept appearing in my mind
I kept begging God to not pass them by on Pentacost and show to the kids how REAL He is
my tears kept flowing in my cheek and His presence was soo strong till my wholebody was shaking
i couldnt contain it till i had to scream
i couldnt imagine that now i had not seen Him face to face but i can feel His presence, it made me shake and scream, how if i would meet Him face to face?
He is too HOLY . . .
an its worth it, the teachers tears, kneel, begging, He heard all of us!
Amazing is His work today
Even Joanne who is only 2 years plus was so peaceful enjoying the presence of God, even till he parents came up and her dad kept praying for her as well, she still enjoying the presence of God
when i saw this, my tears just flow and kept thanking Him
no words and there really no words to express my thankfulness to Him
I keep falling in lophe with You=)
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
YOU ARE INVITED =)
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
surprise? news? gossip? confession?
my bestfriend, monika called me from jakarta just to tell me her uneq uneq next, what else?
hahahahaha
its been ages didnt hear her complain and this compain was a surprise for me
it is about our secondary friend who i used to loathe so much during my sec school
hahahahaha but it was over of course and i am fine with her, we occasionally msg via Facebook :)
even after monika told me about her uneq uneq, i dont have any hard feeling also
i feel such a sympathy to momo and her friend
this news is a shocking to me because i thought she is steady with her current boyfriend but little did we expect she snatched the 6-years-boyfriend of momo's friend
oh gosh! it was like a nostalgia back to those times because last time in our sec times, she was well known as a third party of a rlship also
i really cant figure it out !
The older you are, the more sensible you are supposed to be, am i right?
Nevertheless, dont bother about her, Momo!
dont take it too hard, forgive her for whatever she had done at your back
remember, dont make yourself fall to sin just because of this
its not worth it
i know it aint easy, but just pray and bless her so she will change one day :)
and another surprise from my secondary friend whom we used to be very close during our last sec year!
tried to recall that after we finished our sec school, we were drifted apart till we both were attached
but, i also clearly remember we hang out together in group in few occasions like new year and imlek!
all of sudden, he called me at msn and heconfessed a secret that he had kept from me for, lets say 10 years?
after 10 years only he revealed to me that he had a crush on me!
and i was surprised and shocked! huahauhuhauhahuhaa
oh God! another surprises You let me know
You are just awesome !!
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Your promise is Yes and Amen :)
Be hold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you - Genesis 28:15
God had spoken to me thru this verse and surprisingly, Mendy also got the similiar verse that reminded her
and again today, thru ci owen's vision strengthen this verse to me
its a confirmation from Him, and i know it :)
its so peaceful knowing that i wont be alone in every seasons of my life
last time, i used to tell Him please use me to be let His will be done in my life, without asking Him to give me strength and wisdom!
and He gave me some pailful trials in order to fullfill some of His will in my life, i was full with bitterness and anger and asked Him a big WHY
little did i knew, when i asked him a WHY, it showed that i didnt trust Him
little did i realized that He had never left me alone nor forsaken me
we all need to be processed to go to the next level of our faith
without the painful trial, without the tears, without the hurt, i wont be what i am today
it is indeed, He gave me something new that i have never imagined before
He gave me non-stop surprises that i had never asked before, ever greater that what i had asked from Him
only after i passed it thru, i understand WHY He gave me the trial
only after i passed it thru, i can be thankful for the pains i gone thru
only after i passed it thru, my tears of happiness flows in my cheek as i have no more words to express my gratefulness to Him
only after i passed it thru, i understand How He loves me so much that He brought me back intimate to Him
only after i passed it thru, i can set my eyes on Him and am giving Him my best to serve Him
and now, yesh i still tell Him to let His will done in my life, use me to be His tool and send me to anywhere He wants me to go BUT i always beg Him to give me strength and wisdom so i wont fall again like last time :)
even after i received His personal promises to me, i know the enemy wont be happy and the more essential for me to always lean on Him
i will keep waiting till Your promise takes place in my life
when ko riky asked me about the his plan for SS this evening, i only told him that i am fine with anything and anywhere because i had told God to send me to the place He wants me to go
I am ready to be placed at anywhere as long as i can serve Him . . .
10, 11 and 12 May 2oo9 - Sofitel Johor
SECOND DAY - 11 May 2oo9 - With Om Herry Kho
FIRST DAY - 10 Mau 2oo9 - With Om Djohan Handojo
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
a blessed MAY
i was so excited and am still excited with MAY
there are so plenty of reasons i lophe MAY and look forward till end of month
i was excited in the beginning of the month because i made the 3 flavour sandwhich to my kids
cheese, skippy and strawberry jam and i made it with lophe, of couse hahahaha
but unfortunately, only JOEL ate it while Darren and Shannon didnt like bread, not forgotten the teachers!
so next time i will make other food for them !!
seeing the people you love eat the foods that you have prepared reallie cheers you up!
believe me)
other reason was the SS retreat!
OMG! i just couldnt stop talk about Him and the His amazing annointing in the extraordinary retreat
last time, i used to wonder how those people were being touched by Holy Spiri can act funny2 one and sometimes i even laughed at them
but now i totally understand why they did that!
i, of course totally aware what i was doing [except suddenly i already shifted to other spot] but the rest, i knew it!
what i had in mind on that time only GOD GOD GOD and GOD not other things, even the slighest thing
the peace, happiness and warm that i felt that, was something that ive never felt before, something that i didnt want to stop, something that i wish to hold forever . . .
nothing can compare this peace in my entire life
next! i am so excited to be the WL for the very first time in my life
oh nooo i am so scared, even when im typing this post, my heart is pounding
im worried if i cant give the best performance to GOD and disappoint the kids
i need a strength from Him beause without Him, i will never be able to do it
i hope my voice wont tremble hahahaha
AMEN :)
next! the Holy Spirit Rain Down!
ooohhh-ohhhh-ohhhhh!
the most awating moment for May 2oo9 ^:^
i believe, there will be greater things and creative miracle happens during these moments, eg having the kids to be the kids prayer :)
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
be joyful !! be joyful !!
tanggal 8, 9, 10 and 11 may adalah hari2 yang sangat amazing and berarti dalam hidup gw, dan gw yakin bukan cuman gw tapi jugha guru2 SS laennya jugha begithu ^:^
Dimulai dr Prayer Worker pas hari sabtu
saat pencurahan Roh Kudus, gw udah mulai tertawa dan sangat tenang sekaleee
trus lanjut pas Retreat the next day, session pertama by om djohan qta semua bener di jamah dan saya merasa sangat sukacita sekali
dan Tuhan ngomong ke gw "bersukacitalah! bersukacitalah!"
cuman kata ini yang di replay2 selalu ke gw saat ithu
dan emang bener! selama retreat, qta semua sangat bersukacita!
lanjut session selanjutnya pas ama tante betty, ini lebih lagi!
rasanya rasa sukacita ini tidak bisa di bendung di dalam hati gw, sukacita ini terasa meluap luap di dalam hati ampe kayae hati gw udah ga bisa membendungnya! ampe gw hrs tereak sekuat tenaga gw!
rasanya ngak bisa di ungkapkan dengan kata2 betapa bersukacitanya gw saat itu!
gw hanya bisa tertawa, tertawa dan tertawa =)
saat itu, sukacita ini sungguh buat gw bener2 pengen menanggalkan kedagingan gw dan tertawa selalu dengan roh Tuhan Yesus selama lamanya!
rasanya gw pengen selalu berada di hadirat Tuhan dan ga mau lepaskan
gw nga ngerasa malu utk melompat, tertawa, melambai lambaikan tangan gw walopun anak2 bilang gaya gw kaya laen nyanyi Take it All :b
yang ada dalam pikiran gw hanya "ini Tuhan aku anakMu, aku ingin memujiMu, aku ingin menyembah Engkau, aku ingin memberikan yang terbaek untuk Engkau, aku ingin Kau di tinggikan! aku ingin Engkau di puja! aku ingin Engkau tersenyum"
dan saat gw lompat2 ini, muka gw lagi memandang ke atas dan gw merasa gw dengan banyakkkk org laen sedang meninggikan Tuhan
sangat indah, perasaan ini sangat indah :)
gw yakin banged beginilah rasanya saat di Surga ^:^
saat laen jugha, waktu gw, levina and yessy bertiga saling tertawa melingkar di territory yang sama [awalnya qta saling ga tau] di kepala gw terbayang bayang qlo saat itu ada 3 anak kecil cewe sedang bergandengan tangan muter2 dan bernyanyi dan tertawa2 bersama di taman rumput hijau dan indah banged
dan saat ini qta bertiga tertawa keras banged dan ga bisa berhenti
kayae qta bertiga bisa ikutan kontes tertawa paling keras HAHAHAHA
pas gw confirmasi ama levina, dia ga merasa sedang di taman siyyyy tapi pas gw tanya yessy, dia merasa sedang di taman jugha!
Tuhan sungguh luar biasa!
bahkan, di saat tante Betty bilang bahwa dia melihat lidah lidah api sedang turun
badan gw rasanya seperti kesetrum listrik !
semuanya ini qlo bukan krn gw yang mengalamin sendiri, gw ga akan tahu dan gw ga akan bisa bersyukur
saat gw mengalamin semua ini, cuman air mata yang keluar dr gw
ga ada kata2 yang bisa gw ungkapkan ke Tuhan
air mata bahagia
gw yang berdosa ini bisa di kaseh privilege untuk mendapatkan sukacita surga, mendapatkan jamahan yang kudus, mendapatkan urapan yang suci seperti ithu
ga pernah sekalipun Dia tinggalkan gw, dalam setiap seasons dr kehidupan gw bahkan in the darkest point of my life
only now then i understand His purpose for all the things happened in my life
all these pains, all those tears, all those experiences
i would not be in this LEVEL if he did not give me the process
thanks Lord for that painful Lord, its been paid off and only thankfulness fills my heart
the painful process that made me turn my way back to GOD
when i only have GOD in my heart and life and giving my best just for Him
i know ive already moved to the next level and please bring me to the higher next level, God
i want to experience of You more and more until it overflows and You give me new heart and strength
I LOVE YOU, LORD GOD AND USE ME AS WHAT YOU HAVE PLANNED FOR ME BECAUSE I AM READY TO SERVE YOU TILL YOU COME TO PICK ME UP =)
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Good to Laugh
Jika dikatakan cantik dikira menggoda ,
jika dibilang jelek di sangka menghina..
Bila dibilang lemah dia protes,
bila dibilang perkasa dia nangis .
Maunya emansipasi, tapi disuruh benerin genteng, nolak
(sambil ngomel masa disamakan dengan cowok)
Maunya emansipasi, tapi disuruh berdiri di bis malah cemberut
(sambil ngomel,Egois amat sih cowok ini tidak punya perasaan)
Jika di tanyakan siapa yang paling di banggakan, kebanyakan bilang Ibunya ,
tapi kenapa ya ..... lebih bangga jadi wanita karir,
padahal ibunya adalah ibu rumah tangga
Bila kesalahannya diingatkankan, mukanya merah..
bila di ajari mukanya merah,
bila di sanjung mukanya merah
jika marah mukanya merah
Di tanya ya atau tidak, jawabnya diam;
ditanya tidak atau ya, jawabnya diam;
ditanya ya atau ya, jawabnya diam,
ditanya tidak atau tidak, jawabnya diam,
ketika didiamkan malah marah
(repot kita disuruh jadi dukun yang bisa nebak jawabannya).
Di bilang ceriwis marah,
dibilang berisik ngambek,
dibilang banyak mulut tersinggung,
tapi kalau dibilang S u p e l
wadow seneng banget...padahal sama saja maksudnya.
Dibilang gemuk engga senang
padahal maksud kita sehat gitu lho
dibilang kurus malah senang
padahal maksud kita "kenapa elho jadi begini !!!"
Itulah WANITA makin kita bingung makin senang DIA !
ohhh,...Tuhan.
I was sent this fwd e-mail from ci keny and it made laugh
it caught my attention and i couldnt hold myself from forwarding it to my others friend
and guess what!?!
3 of my guyfriend gave SAME respond!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
throught it all =)
it might sounds weird to some of you but its the fact !
Friday, May 1, 2009
Thanks, Jesus!
first of all, let me greet you all a MAY DAY
a-ha! today is a public holiday but i'm proudly showing off to you all that i was working !
hahahaha :b
it is one of the limitations of working in the trading company, except for Xmas or New Year, FOREX is always open and tradeable
Nevertheless, i still thank GOD that today only 1 client walked in and Jason the one who attended to the client and the incoming call less than 15 calls
wooo-hoo!
God has been started to answer all my prayers and realize all my wishes
He is amazing and His time is perfect and beautiful!
first of all!
i prayed to keep my love and fire to Him and make it bigger and bigger till i cant contain it
and my love to GOD been growing and growing, i just couldnt get him enough!
i couldnt start and close my day without praying and worshipping Him
i am crazy for Him and i fall in love all over again, its like a first love!
i'll never trade this heart fulls of love to YOU with other things in this world!
Thanks, Jesus!
another one!
as per previous post, i wanted to serve God by giving my best to my kids!
The new heart that fulls of compassion and love to the kids that He gave me!
today i walked around Popular to buy the stuff that are needed to do our activity this sunday and i do hope they will enjoy it!
ive never been this excited to see my kids and their face are in my mind since then
i even planned to make some easy sandhiwch/cakes/brownies for them!
i'll never trade this excitement with other things in this world!
Thanks, Jesus!
another one!
He gave me chance to take care of my brothers when they were here in SG to accompany - yay! my one of 2oo9's wishlists had accomplished =)
listening to their stories, watching movies with them, buying things they wanted and seeing their smile when they got their desired stuff reallie cheers me up than anything else
i'll never trade this satisfaction with other things in this world and i want to be their only and best-big-sister forever
Thanks, Jesus!
another one!
it seems long long time ago, i prayed Him to "softly" cut off my rlship with this person
but it was tough and i was struggling to really let this person go
we were not drifted apart, on the other hand, we became closer than before, in fact
but from deep inside of my heart, he wasnt from Him
after few months, finally few days ago something that made us not too happy to one another and because of it, no matter what we had to continue with our own live and choice
and yesh! i guess he wont contact me for sometimes till everything's back to normal friendship and i am relieved and feel sooooo peaceful =)
i'll never trade this peace with other things in this world!
Thanks, Jesus!
another one!
my IG =)
i always bless my company and say my thankfulness for making me a head not a tail
okeh, this month can be said my poorest month because of the 35% CPF deduction
whoah! its a long story and all because of Peter for being a forgetful old man :D
after the 3.5/5 grade (it means i meet the company's expectation hahaha) performance appraisal, upcoming-bonus, new-scheme-pot per month till not-sure-pay increment (amen!!)
the new scheme pot commission is really a blessing to all of us because the figure ( hehehehe . . . ) is something ive never thought or asked from God before
till Janah said that she is planning to buy LV in 2 months time with the commission (like real one siaa hahahaha. . . )
Then Bobby said that He can use the commission to go to Jakarta every week to visit his GF
I hope that i can buy the cruise ticket for my dad and mom with my hard-earned-monies!
i'll never trade IG Markets with other things in this world!
Thanks Jesus!
only one word, THANK YOU VERY MUCH JESUS for giving me the best, even bestest-ER than what ive ever prayed and asked :)